Sandra's Soliloquy

Friday Reflection- 11th April 2025

Sandra’s Soliloquy

Good morning everyone. I hope you are well, enjoying some of the sunny days and blossom everywhere. New life is springing up.

I had a most unusual conversation the other evening on the phone with one of my daughters. Confusion reigned on my behalf. She knew what she was talking about, but I’d confused a word, for one which we had been using earlier. My mind was puzzling over this, whilst she continued to explain a situation, and I couldn’t understand. She carried on, and eventually, the penny dropped. I started laughing. Finally, I could go back and make sense of what she was describing. I had to tell her of my error, in thinking she was talking about ‘Crocs’ as we had been previously, whereas she had moved onto a story about clocks.

I wondered if it was my brain fog, my tinnitus, the phone, which had contributed to the error, whilst also acknowledging that sometimes it is just an error, or we hear what we think we do. I have the sub titles on my tv for programmes as I struggle to understand accents or conversations. My hearing may be affected because of the tinnitus, or my concentration, but other times it is still excellent.

I wondered how we may often ‘mishear’ God, or a message, even in Church? Do we actively seek correction of a misunderstanding, clarity of how we have interpreted something?

However, I was also reminded of how I was ‘deceived’ deliberately years ago, in my early stages of my new ‘Spiritual’ understanding. For many years after I struggled and questioned how I could have been so foolish to have been mistaken, as it seriously affected our lives. I was mightily relieved when a preacher I deeply admire, pointed out to me at a meeting, that I had not been foolish, the person had set out to deceive, a deliberate intention. And everyone around me, family, friends and church elders had believed it too.

My relationship with God became much deeper and real as I turned to Him in distress and for help over the years. I learned many hard lessons. One is to watch if people’s actions match their words. I had accepted their seniority and confidence in their faith, and ignore the concern and red flag I had internally, and not recognise it for the arrogance of the person, honing in on my acceptance that they heard from God. They used me.

But God was also able to bring many good things alongside the truly awful.

This started as a piece about the confusion in a phone call, but I ensured I clarified what I had misunderstood and was able to laugh about it. This was with my daughter, with whom I am very close, and have a good relationship with. I still find it very difficult to allow people too close into my life, and am very wary. Plus of course the ME makes it complicated anyway and my energy is very precious.

I find the World a very sad place currently, and too many people spouting lies, and using others, or having no respect for the sanctity of life. Carnage and genocide are rife, and those inflicting it, not brought to justice, but courted by other heads of state and assisted. I retreat further and further into my small space and small circle, whilst drawing closer to God.

Dear Lord, help us to draw closer to You at this time, and to spread Your Love and Word. There are beautiful signs of Your Creation around us, and many wonderful things happening in our communities. Please help us to remember the message at Easter, that Jesus, came to save the lost, and we pray for a resolution and end to all the wars and conflicts in the world. We pray for the poorest, that they receive health, food and care, that all deserve. We ask that resources will be shared equally.

We pray for ourselves, for Your Peace that surpasseth all understanding, and healing and Love. In Jesus’ Name we pray. Amen.

God Bless everyone- Sandra x

God’s ways are higher than our ways.

Isaiah 55:9

‘For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.’

Don Moen - God Will Make A Way (Lyrics)

God will make a way, where there seems to be no way.

youtube.com

Don Moen - God Will Make A Way (Lyrics)

Collections of praise and worship songs. The best Christian music for soul nourishment and healing for troubled hearts and minds. I hope to spread His words ...

All reactions:

22